Wednesday, 8 June 2016

A Renewed Love

In February my youngest baby started preschool. This meant that for the first time in a decade I had some time to myself, & I also had to think about getting back to work! I didn't know what to do with myself!! Always awkward & uncomfortable without my littles now. 
It was so scary at first, I had a head full of fear & doubt, & just general confusion as to what my personal future would be. To be honest I still don't know entirely what my future holds, but over the past few months I have worked hard to be able to aim towards exciting times.

I have always loved being creative. I'm so happy when decorating our home, making the children gifts & encouraging crafts. This combination led to the creation of ABOE designs, & especially the colour-in range. I'm proud of this little range & it has fitted in perfectly with my family; they have loved & inspired so much of it. I will continue to expand & work on the products & increase stockists etc, but as a designer I would love to have more to sink my teeth in to, so to speak. 

Before my children, I studied lingerie design (contour fashion) & surface pattern & decoration design. I thought my career would be in designing delicate lingerie fabrics; but to approach this type of design again filled me with doubt & insecurity!

Thanks to the way we live today & social media playing a part in most of our lives I'm fortunate to be able to say that Instagram has brought about so much happiness to my little life. It has allowed me to start & grow in product photography, it has brought so many lovely 'friends in my phone' in to my life & it just recently helped me to rediscover one of my true loves! I don't mean anything sordid here, sorry no ex's have turned my eye, I'm very happily married ;) But I have definitely fallen in love with drawing all over again!! 

I'd convinced myself that I wouldn't be able to get an artistic job. I secretly cried quite a lot at the thought of not being able to work in a creative environment, having not worked for a decade how could I compete with graduates etc. I looked at freelance jobs, but always convinced myself that I couldn't do it, I wasn't good enough anymore. So I don't know what came over me when I saw on Instagram a job vancancy with one of my favourite wedding stationers, and just messaged instantly! I wasn't full of fear but instead excitement!! Well ok the fear set in as soon as the message was sent, but I'd already put myself out there by that point so the hardest part was done right?! To my surprise the lovely designer in question suggested working together on a project, which we did & I hope to show you in the future! The process of working on this design meant I was once again sat drawing florals & was genuinely so happy to be back doing something that I loved. By the end of the first week I was happy with my drawings and by the second really excited by them!

have decided to draw as many florals as possible and work towards a new design portfolio to be proud of! I have loved talking to new couples about designs for their wedding stationery & who knows maybe it could be something that I could develop further myself? The thought of constantly drawing, working on strengthening a talent that I'm so blessed to have is exciting! That combined with my little business, could be the perfect balance. I have never asked to be rich, to just make sure we can support our little ones & their future is all we aspire to do. To be with them & doing what I love seems like the perfect life to me! & maybe when they are much older & not wanting me so much I can then really go for it? The things is we just don't know what the future has in store for us, but it certainly is more comforting to work towards an idea & have a plan of action. 

Here are some of my drawings so far. I'd love to have your feedback & of course if you have any suggestions for how I can turn my renewed love into a career then please do shout out - all ideas welcome ;)

Thank you for reading as always, bestest wishes